Monday, February 28, 2011
The YeAr iN ReVieW...
Today, was the last day of my high school. This year as i call it .... it was the my extreme type of matric. What ever i was going through in matric the same repeated but with increased intensity. Being divided (big time), losing someones trust, making new friends, hanging out with some others, passing through a number of depressing emotion collectively. In short, my last day was an over view of my full year. One of two girls stood with me till half an hour and left me for the rest of the day. Similarly the whole year some people were with me.......... but still only for a short period of time and then left. The empty classroom reminded me of the hollowness i felt in my heart. Again i ran after people, asking them to lend me their company (although it may have annoyed some). The teachers remained the same. I could bear the emptiness, so i decided to run away ........ run far away from the depressing class. In an attempt to run away from myself. But the memories will remain with me ..... happy ones, bad ones all have the same place in my mind and heart. Coz both played an important role in my life the year around.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Being DiVidEd....
I was always proud of enjoying my life with friends, relative. i guess meri apne he mujhy nazar lag gai. Now i don't enjoy life. It seems life has lost it colours. People say that you have to enjoy life yourself, but as if my heart doesn't want to enjoy now. I m tired.... I m tired in my mind, I m tired in my heart. I tired of being divided. Its like your fooling one to be with another..... and still thinking about someone else. Its like your heart can't be in one piece at one time. I hate being divided. That feeling is just awful. Its ful of fear that someone will get hurt and that will hurt me even more. Its like you can't enjoy being with anyone. Its a problem that you can't solve you can only leave it to Allah and let time heal all....
Having Everyone EXcEPt AllaH....
Living a life full of relatives, friends, family .... even if you have everyone in your life, except Allah. Then, your life is incomplete. There is a special place for your Creator in your life, a place which no one else can fulfill. Who says you can't feel the presence of God?? His presence is felt. Its felt deep inside the heart. The soul feels it and and longs for that place to be fulfilled. Life without Allah (God) is like a life without colours, a body without soul, a person without his lover...... its just merely empty. A life in which even the next second feels like million of years. A time which you don't know how to pass. A life full of fears.... fear of every thing living, non-living, visible, invisible, shadow, death everything. A fear that makes your soul weep. A heart that don't know where to reside. Hands which don't know where to be pulled up to. A tightness that seems like an endless knot. Life seems to lose it value, worth and charm.When we have God we leave everything to him. And we have faith that He will never disappoints us. But, when you don't have Him .... its like every single person in this world is useless. Truly no one can understand you completely Except Allah. He created you. He know everything about you, whether you conceal it or not,,,, He knows. Except Him no one can help you. People, they themselves are dependent upon Allah then how can you tie hopes to them. Having everyone but Except Allah won't be a life as it seems....
Friday, February 25, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
A FeW AdViceS,..
If Allah brings you to it,
then He will bring you through it.
In Happy moments,
Praise Him.
In difficult moments,
Seek Him.
In quiet moments,
Worship Him.
In painful moments,
Trust Him.
ANd in every moment,
Thank Him......
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